"This calls for a celebration..." we all decided after finishing our ramp walk at AIISH AWAAZ 27/2/10.Huh! it indeed was a sigh of relief..after a whole week of endless practice sessions,
coliations,rectifications,justifications for our totally pointless mistakes,hawking around every inch and corner of mysore for designer wear,tiff and stuff(because unfortunately all our celebrated diversity leads to all the more disunity and disapproval), the euphoria had finally come to an end..Though we couldn't end up being the 'proud winners',for amateurs like us,the participation itself mattered a lot..Adding to our joy was "holi"-the festival of colours, according to hindu calender, was on the very next day.
Now i am redirecting you to the very first sentence of this blog,"this calls for a celebration", that is how we decided to gather once again to celebrate it with a bang! but..alas destiny has something else in store for us.
It was a little while past 3 pm, 28/2 ,i was more than elated,just then my phone msg tone buzzed me alert,it was a msg from shrisha saying that rajini,one of our fellow participant,has met with a fatal accident this morning!!! it was too much to take.
the immediate scene is happening at APPOLO ,all of us rushed there,to see the poor girl lying so badly injured,hurt more than all that, shattered morally!!to our utter dismay,she was bleeding profously. Seeing her plight,our eyes became moist!we couldn't pull ourselves together,let alone consoling her.We did try our level best to solace her,needless to say, all our efforts were futile.
In the corridor,we were having a conspiracy against fate!how ruthlessly destiny victimizes innocent people by playing our cards on its pitiless terms.Just as we were cursing the fate,something very strange occured to my mind from nowhere,i muttered all of a sudden "hey,is she wearing her TAAVIZ???" ..."oh!gosh",shrisha hissed.Reactions of everybody was baffled.
let me take u all back to friday evening during one of those critical practice sessions,all our clothes were set for the d-day, we were discussing about the accessories to be worn.Rajini used to wear a peculiar looking taaviz around her neck,which she considered ,her guard,defence, saviour or whatsoever.she claimed,in a way it always protected. we all laughed off at her credence,rubbishing it.She tried to convince us in vain.we all were beyond caring for a stereotypic taaviz . We urged her to take it off on the day of our show.She was extremely reluctant at the beginnig ,but since the majority of us forced her to remove it as it would look awkward on the ramp according to our perception,which ,to some extent was also true.She was not left with a chioce.It was our decision againt her wish.Finally,poor girl, removed her taaviz from her neck for the show.
It was not even 24hrs since she had taken it off,she had a nasty fall from her bike,leaving her injured badly.When this vague idea of, taaviz being her defendant all these while,occured to my mind,i couldn't help myself but spill it out.Each one of us became guilty beyond grievance.We shouldn't have forced her to do so! but, the milk had been spilt.,no point in crying over it.
we all, upto an extent, are atheists,we see to our convenience when it comes to following certain beliefs,we have grown up older and matured enough to reason the practices our elders taught us.But why is that we still have this rootless,sourceless fear, somewhere deep down our heart,which simply binds us to regard and abide few practices without questioning them.Though we know it makes no serious sense.
Before i wrap up,want to put you all into some thinking "was that her taaviz that really shielded her or her immense faith in it that protected her"- is a million dollar question yet to be answered!!!!
